Thursday 20 October 2016

A to Z Challenge: Q is for Q

Beckett just started recognizing 'Q' and '8' yesterday. And today she started recognizing A & X.


The benefits of having a life long teacher (my Mom) taking care of you are simply too many.

P.S: Please don't ask me what's up with the order of things.

Tuesday 18 October 2016

A to Z Challenge: P is for Pappa

'Samyak, you know what? The entire day she chants "Pappa, Pappa". Whenever someone rings the doorbell, or whenever she hears some noise from outside, she goes "Pappa.". But she never says Mummy.'

Beckett utters the word 'Pappa' in the cutest possible way. The way she greets me when I reach home from work is seared into me for eternity. That one high pitched lilting syllable followed by the second low pitched one just melts the day away. She can then scratch, bite, or scream the living daylights out of me and I won't be even the slightest bit perturbed.

But for all her paeans of Pappa, you just have to see what happens when Missus arrives. Beckett doesn't have to utter any word. Maybe it is the boobs, or more likely the fact that Missus goes to any extent needed to ensure that the best is done for Beckett both while she is at home and when she is not. When Missus is at home, there is no way Pappa can hold a candle to her.

But Pappa does other weird and fun things; like holding Beckett upside down and swinging her by her legs, or getting into tightly contested gibberish matches with her only to lose after putting up the most valiant of fights, or reading out books to and with her, or playing both Hindi & English songs - right from the golden oldies to today's pop hits, or eating her food when she refuses, or bathing her and teaching her to bobble her head under water in the bathtub, or getting glow toys for her to see and marvel at in the dark, or pushing the swing, the roundabout, and the sea-saw while she has fun at the other end, or playing Raag Hansdhwani for 10 seconds before she starts making a go for my Baansuri, or the ever so dreadful potty ritual - which has now become a productivity game where the objective is to minimise the usage of wet wipes and time taken while not compromising on the cleaning quality. 

Pappa is alright.    

Wednesday 5 October 2016

A to Z Challenge: O is for Oh My God

She bleeds.

It can be a cut on the index finger made by a razor pulled out of a bag after opening the zipper or banging a cell phone on her own mouth or grazing herself by falling on asphalt while trying to take one step too many or a sliding window, its frame, and her finger agreeing to a violently impromptu rendezvous, or the prick of the vaccine needle.

Each time I go through something like this, my heart sinks, part of me goes numb, and the one unequivocal thought that rankles in my completely baffled mind is 'Oh My God, what have I done to her!', 'Oh My God, how horrible a father am I!', 'Oh My God, it could've been so much worse!', 'Oh My God, what is the next thing I should brace for?' (Okay, that's 4 thoughts, but you get what I'm talking about, right?)

And there is so much more both she and I have to go through yet. I now have some inkling of what my mother would've gone through when I told her I was going sky diving or when Atman left for college in New Delhi. I can't even imagine sending her to school alone for a couple of hours. 

Shit. Shit. Shit. I'm so screwed. 

P.S: I didn't mention Boys here, but that thing scares the absolute shit out of me. I know what horrible jerks they can be. Takes one to know one.